lunatic gone nuts...madly in love in the city of angels

heya, I am still alive. and mroe than ever! ;-)
thats just an update for whoever reads this (I doubt there is anybody of you my dear friends reading anyways, although that was meant to freakin replace my f***** massmails, but whatever...)

I am in los angeles obviously and hey, i hated it so much in the beginning..i mean the city, not the beach ;-P
but now....i fell in love. like, really really in love!
and thats fucking awesome. i can't believe that this is happening to me, but it is true. every day.
his name is Dany and he is half gipsy half rumanian and grew up here in California and is the best thing that could have happened to me. yeah! :D
it is a wonderful experience and certainly adds an entirely different value to los angeles and how i will remember it in the future.....

i am so excited!

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the adventurer....decision making via MSN messenger

This is a conversation i had on msn messenger with my dear friend qimin from china...we met in ecla, my college and thats what we talked about: (me as merry cherry)

merry cherry says:
how are YOU/?
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
i have to make a decision, which is quite difficult for me
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
but I think I have already made it though I have still worry about that
merry cherry says:
tell me which
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
I want to know just assume if you were me what you would act
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
say, i have a nice job now, which is sometimes boring, but somehow promising
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
i do auto marketing research
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
and auto is a prosperous booming industry in china
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
you have no problem finding another job relevant after working in this field for 1-2 years
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
that's the secure way
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
and meanwhile I was offered another job
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
which sounds crazy
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
tour leader
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
and which is not secure at all
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
i mean in that career sense
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
but it would be much more fun and challenging
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
so what shall i do now
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
?
merry cherry says:
go for the crazy
merry cherry says:
if you were me
merry cherry says:
but wait, i did secure things first too
merry cherry says:
tell me more about the tour leading thing
merry cherry says:
it depends on whether you want to work more in this direction
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
haha
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
i know
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
i am not sure
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
i think i am not an office girl anyways
merry cherry says:
even if it turns out to be a shitty tour thing, you ll have the experience, you can have a paper that says you did that and you can always find a new job in that field. especially because you get to know people on the way and people are the keys to new worlds, doors to new ideas, jobs etc
merry cherry says:
you may seem on the first sight qimin. to be honest. because you know how to contain and retain yourself
merry cherry says:
but then, you travelled whole fucking europe on your own, being the first time out of china
merry cherry says:
that makes you an adventurer and the both combined, your seeming containedness with the surprise factor of being daring and adventurous is the best combination to blow peoples minds off and to sneak into scenes....they will think you just listen when you stand there and yeah, hell yeah, you DO listen. and then you act. you are cool
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
haha
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
thank you
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
well, i think i really really should try this
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
otherwise i will have pity
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
i do not want to have no regret for my life especially when i am young
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
even that choice turns out to be a mistake i will go
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
I ask my friends for opinions on this job stuff and most of them go you know, do not do that
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
that's a dangerous job
merry cherry says:
well listen qimin i tell you something
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
keep to what you are doing now until you get bored totally and find you are already too old to change anything
merry cherry says:
no matter where you go, there you are. if you go for the secure job you will tell yourself, well, if i do this, i ll have the security of finding a job anytime. and then i still can go and do the crazy shit, with the security of being able to have a job in the pocket
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
then you have to take all the tediousness yourself cuz you choose that
merry cherry says:
but the truth is, that you will meet people while doing this job, who open you new doors, just like it will happen with anything you do.
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
i fully realize that
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
well, the job i am doing now is sort of narrow
merry cherry says:
the question you have to ask yourself is: do i want to meet THOSE people and THOSE doors? because you will go on then. then you ll have the opportunity to be the lets say, district manager of sth. good money, good money, is good life...but little time, right? will you go on world tours with this money like japanese people who travel the world in one week, shoot photos and look at them at home?
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
you know that sort of feeling, it is restricted
merry cherry says:
i know
merry cherry says:
it s not you
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
you are always in a box
merry cherry says:
you want to break free
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
like everyday you sit in your small cubic for 8 hours
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
that is what sucks most
merry cherry says:
see, if you do the tour thing and it turns out to be bad you STILL can become a office girl. i would look at it from that perspective. as long as you are quite young you ll always can go back
merry cherry says:
but as soon as you get older youll get used to security, you can't risk so much anymore, maybe youll have children with a boring office guy you met
merry cherry says:
this way you have the chance to meet inspiring, exciting people and still go back to security later
merry cherry says:
you want to risk. you are adventurous. i know that life is tough and sometimes you do mistakes and you won't ever be able to get where you could have been....prestigious, rich, blablabla. but the secret is:
merry cherry says:
adventurous people never get bored. shitty life, little money? yeah. we can deal with that. we did before. and we ll find other ways. going to clean other peoples houses for money? no problem. as long as we can keep up our adventurous mind with all the colours
merry cherry says:
where are we more likely to loose those colours, our adventurousness?
merry cherry says:
in the cubic for 8 hours a day
merry cherry says:
when you live you life, adventurous, crazy, and decide to go to security later, to a safe office job
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
you sacrifice your freedom
merry cherry says:
YOU WILL BE THE BETTER CHOICE FOR ANY EMPLOYER
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
career spoils most fun and unexpected beauties
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
and i do not want that at least now
merry cherry says:
when you tell them what you did, you manageed a tour, you saw the world, you can survive insecurity
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
maybe i am thirty something i want secure i want 8 hours a day looking at computer
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
but now, no . i feel so constrained
豆子 为祂安静 因祂欢喜 says:
so depressed
merry cherry says:
they will hire you even more likely. the real good business world, the top people can't be people who were brainwashed and grew up in a cubic. people who grew up in a cubic don't know how to think ROUND. they think in fucking cubes. they will become district managers, never entrepreneurs, never daring, smart, managers because they know shit about the world outside the cube. and hey, there
merry cherry says:
IS A WORLD OUTSIDE THE CUBE. and real good top managers NEED to KNOW that by EXPERIENCE
merry cherry says:
if you do the safe thing feeling depressed, you will never become or retrack your inspiration. you will wail and regret all the time subconsciously
merry cherry says:
as long as you are young you can say loudly and proudly FUCK SECURITY
merry cherry says:
because you knwo, as an adventurer you can always get that back, easily
merry cherry says:
without selling your soul
merry cherry says:


merry cherry says:
preach is over