http://www.myspace.com/katestrand - click on the title to get to Kate's myspace website! Listen to her song! Love her just as I do!!!!
I am so proud to have such beautiful friends. Can you believe she is only 20. She is the most gorgeous and wonderful person you can imagine. She and Amanda and Tiffany and Marie are such wonderful women - all singers - in my life who have all a perfect ray of light inside themselves to share with us.
It's great. Don't forget to listen to 'closely' on her site too! It's a FUCK YOU song :)
Isn't she great? I am marvelling.
So life is great. I have my own little 'ship' now. That is my way of trying to talk myself into believing that I don't need another six months of staring at trees. My room is very little and has windows at two sides. I look at windows of a big apartment complex at one side. At the other I see crackheads, homeless and pissers go about their twilight businesses in the back of a parking lot and behind dumpsters. Around the corner I can catch the glance on a tree but it looks kinda hapless and sad inbetween our houses. I hear the dumpster truck at 4 AM in the morning and a neverending air conditioner blows it's way through my attention. I will get used to it. Ironically this is the only room I didn't want and it's funny how things go. I realized at the very day we moved that I can't live yet another year without my own bed or space so I told poor Tiffany I can't share with her a room after all which means for both of us financial troubles. But it's the only way it's gonna work. I started being a grumpy gege already. I suspect that my wish to have a room with view at trees came really from the fear of not having my own space. Now that I have it, it's okay to look at hapless things. I also see the Columbia Records tower which is framed by trees (ha! trees! haha) and a bunch of other ugly Hollywood things.
This room indeed feels like a ship though and so things fit into my life-view (I always wanted to become a Capitan!) and I figured that this view is a perfect inspiration for my writing while I can always go out on the porch with the lovely palm tree and courtyard view if I want to play music.
I am still looking for a name for my ship though!
Other than that i am about to try to get my life tightly together. I mean, you can never give up right!
Heartwise everything is back on track. I still love my Dany with all my heart but I don't hurt anymore. I am very fine with things being how they are. Being single is even greater than before because now I am not looking at all. I don't wonder whether there is someone outthere who is for me to love. I don't care. If something happens, totally unexpected, I am not gonna run away but so far I just enjoy to watch how love transforms itself and shows me different faces. I didn't fall out of love. I go to bed thinking of Dany and it just makes me happy and not sad anymore. I feel as if this can help me give my best and do exactly what I came here for.
My nanny family gave me a very expensive and awesome bed, I haven't slept so well in ages. She said 'but it's a single bed' and I laughed and said, that's perfect because I am single.
See how things fit together.
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