kate strand again

i just had to post the link again. I love her songs. Oh my.

another less pleasant thing on my mind is botox and everything else they use to make themselves look younger.
OLD WOMEN WITH SMOOTH FACES FREAK THE SHIT OUT OF ME!
I can't believe that. Here are so many people who do that. And I can't stop staring...Just imagine. Who knows me knows that I already have a hard time not staring at people anyways. It takes so long for me to take someone's beauty in. As a portrait painter I savor every inch of their faces. But now I am just freaked out and can't stop looking. I try to understand by looking at them.
I try to understand WHY in the hell they would choose to lie so blatantly and desperately. It's an obvious lie. And everybody knows it. I mean, I wouldn't take no word from someone who is known to be a liar. I just wouldn't bother to take his word. Why do they think anybody would take their 'beauty' manifested in less wrinkles and smoother skin if it's such an obvious and blatant lie? WHY WHY WHY? I mean, if it is an actress, a famous one and she has really a point in doing that because the business works that way, like, lets say, she'll get better roles by doing that. OKAY. I can understand that. Not agree with that but understand the motivation. However, if it's just a random bored rich woman?
FUCK OFF! For who do you do that? What happened to our society and to us that so many people would choose to lie to themselves and to their lovers and husbands and children? For the sake of an obvious illusion? Appearance? It seems such a waste of money and time to me. Instead of CREATING something.
Okay.
I was bound to hate that. To despise that. Right? I mean, with my upbringing and background and all.
It was bound to happen.
There is no way I can ever nod my head and say, if that's what they like...
I CAN'T.
Why?
BEcause it DOES bother me, that in our society lying seems to be so accepted. And now, who wants to tell me it's not a lie? IT IS A LIE>
I can't get over it. Okay so I am gonna go now. I just get all wound up thinking of it.
Happy Advent Time to everybody!

Smiles (So I get lots of crow wrinkles yeay!)

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