BITCH

Being a witness on a battlefield, right next to the fucking enemy, yah, being indirectly involved, and you can't do anything, hand's tied, pride can't be put aside, you certainly don't want to fight on such a petty paris hilton level like THIS BITCH.
ah. Public Enemy is the right music to process this anger that is smoking my head right now. Cool down, before you burn your reason baby. Ha.
Is it I am too lazy to fight now? yeah. I guess. This would take it to an whole different level, and because we are girls, more and more people would get invovled, would feel like having to take sides and stuff, and suddenly your whole little planet is on fire. it s so stupid. okay, dudes and dudessas, I admit: GIRLS ARE STUPID AND SMELLY...

she was so ugly. when she turned to her, her pretty little face that usually is one of her better assets ('i just came from a movie/modeling casting and they LOVED me') was so ugly it made me vomit emotionally.
you know how they say true beauty comes from inside? yeah. true ugliness too.
I know we all can be stupid and ugly and stupid and selfish but this bitch is so amazingly tough hearted, I am plainly surprised.
I don't know what's wrong with her but I wish I wouldn't want to know.

I always hated about myself that I always seemd to have to understand the other's perspective oh so well, it spoiled the whole fun of being a teenager, I mean, hey, what fun is it to fight with your dad for something you want just to get his point in the end and being incapable of being stubbornly rebellious and do it your way anyways?
it s no fun really.

so i wish i had a car right now, could drive somewhere to cool my boiling blood down, listen to LOUD music and bitch around, throw the meanes and most low-life-like arguments on her pretty little head in my head. yeah.

how can someone, who claimed to be a FRIEND be such a bitch, so heartless and unforgiving?
one of her arguments to T___ when they had this fight yesterday was: I spent SO MUCH TIME talking with you about your problems with your ex, when he broke up with you etcetc and you STILL WENT BACK TO HIM!
what - did you feel worthless as an advisor because she disregarded your advice? grow up bitch.

makes me think of what Paolo Coelho said in the 'Zahir': true friends are not those who are only there in times of - surprise!- bad times.
because most of them feel so fucking important and special when they can pamper you and make you feel better. it's not really about you when they can't be happy for you either.

and friendship should be unconditional, you know, you work things through, you laugh, love, hate, argue, fight, but you don't QUIT a friendship because of something stupid like that.
she is selfish in not wanting T____ having the same drummer like her, and T_____ is selfish in wanting to be able to jam with him regardless of that.
is that a reason to quit a friendship?
no.
betrayal kills friendships but it still has to make some sense, after all, to an unaffected mind.

and that's so highschool stupid that it makes me sick to have to witness that.

I AM LIVING IN THEIR LIVING ROOM.

and when she turned to T____ with her face distorted by this inner ugliness came through, how she yelled at her with such a sharp and heartless voice. I got shocked, this nice girl I knew is like that? woah. dirty little bitch. get OFF MY COMPUTER NOW, DON'T fucking SMOKE WHEN YOU ARE ON MY LAPTOP. I told you million's of times. and when I come home, ask me whether I maybe want to get on my computer. and when I want to sleep don't fucking smoke and talk to your sister in stereo. hey, if you wanna fight with T_____ why don't you show common courtesy and go in your guy'ses room? HM???

Hm, I forgot, you don't HAVE common courtesy. you don't even wash your dishes yourself, even though we made you food. You left T_____ in YOUR clothe mess because you didn't take advantage of my love offering you to get your stuff with his truck. you left your unwashed clothes with the washed ones. it started to STINK like old pussy in the room. T____ put up with this for two months...


and now you are coming what you wanted to make a home long ago, which you treated like a storage place and claim it as your place just to be a BITCH and fight a dirty respectless fight.

BITCH