Hotel Rwanda

Oh jila la la ...
Thats just a continuation of the movie yesterday. Whereas in 'Darvins Nightmare' the guy was talking about how armed weapons are smuggled from the Western World to Tansania and then distributed all over Africa to provide the necessary weapons for the genocides and wars.
And all this under the pretext of exporting fish from Victoria Lake to the Western World... And now the story of General Romeo Dallaire and Paul Rusesabagina who are truely impressive characters. Persons. Human Beings.

For some reason I always have to cry like a baby whenever I read or see sth like that. Is it PMS? Sentimental? Feminine? I don't know, but I know it makes me cry. Violently. Be it a book on the history of native tribes in America, the slave/afro-american issue, the world wars, africa, southamerica, pinochet, argentinia....I remember, once I read a book by a woman who I had seen giving a speech. She was a child soldier in Somalia or Sudan and this book was so so so .... I can't describe it. It made me cry so violently and hard that when my sister surprisingly entered the room she went like:' Oh my God, Geraldine, whats wrong? What happened???" She really thought something serious had happened to me, something tragic. But I just couldn't stop, I shivered and sobbed like hell and couldn't explain it. When she saw the book she kinda understood. She knows me ;-) and she is similar to me....We just can't help it.

And everytime I get these strong emotions my thoughts start wandering through all possibilities I can imagine how to go about it. Go for law, after all, finally? Be a musician, politician,businesswoman????
There are so many ways but I really know that I want to understand this unbelievable trait of human beings and the system that brings about these happenings... Has this always been part of human history, have the means merely become more horrifying? Less dignified? What is it? The theoretical part is as interesting to me as the practical. Where is my place here? What kind of responsibilities do I want to face? Do I HAVE to face?

well....plenty things to decide and discover. I ll see what happens to me in Los Angeles. I am totally excited to get to know the life of my sister and to start working with her. She and Q'Orianka also plan for making finally a difference as soon as they can, financially....

There are SO many ways!!!!

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