and I am sitting in 'my' new home at Mehringdamm in Berlin and listen to Alicia Keys. Its been a while that I've been listening to her and it fits so perfectly well right now. It makes me happy. And actually I am quite surprised that it doesn't hurt at all because it was J. who burned me the Alicia Keys CD (which unfortunately got lost on the way) and I listened to her last Winter when I was having such a hard time not knowing what I want and all the doubting but also the beautiful moments.
ECLA has been such a great place to grow. Really, although there is not much distance yet I feel how much it challeneged me and how much it made me grow although I felt I am confronted with the ever same problems I have. But thats now a contradition of course ;-)
This beautiful appartment of Timo (whom I got to know, by the way, via the hospitalityclub. Its indeed a great idea! www.hospitaliyclub.org) reminds me so much of Paris and the time I spent there with the 'child under a lucky star' Christina from Scottland whom we met in Brittany, France, back in 2002 with Artaban. She was a great artist and her flat was just so gorgeous, the whole lifestyle just attracted and fascinated me tons. Now that Max told me that he will study in Paris for one year (he got accepted at this cool programme that offers high quality economics studies in three cities: PARIS, LONDON, MADRID or BERLIN) I am really considering to do that as well. I've always had the impression, the feeling that I would live in Paris one day for a certain time. Maybe it will come true. It really was more of a feeling, a certainty within than just a dream....
This place is so special and I am so grateful I can be here. The point is that I really have to admit that I am also a 'child under a lucky star'....just how things work out. Somehow I have a mixture of trust in life and that things will happen and a certain amount of a sense of responsibility that helps me to actually make things happen. But I really didn't know where to stay until the day before yesterday! I just had already asked some friends whether, in a case of emergency, I could stay at their house. So that was allright, I had a backup. Timo's place, however, is just amazingly perfect for my current needs. I can phone for free, have free internet access, am close to the place I am planning to paint portraits at, close to my friends who all live in Kreuzberg and it is simply BEAUTIFUL, which is very important for my psyche and it has a BATHTUB!!! :-)
When I entered today, with my 'own' key, I felt this 'Paris-energy' thru my body and soul and spirit. I WILL BE CREATIVE!!!!!!!!! I am so much looking forward for the time to come and so it is really true that I leave the year at ECLA behind with a crying and a smiling eye. it was love
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stay in tune
geraldine, who enjoys life so much and loves life so much and is so damn grateful for everything that is offered to me. I take it and I will make the best possible out of it in return. love!!!
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